Oh Sister, My Sister

Sister,

As regards feeling "deceived":

The truth, as harsh as it is to say as to hear, is that we TG folk are often uncommonly good liars (especially to ourselves). It’s very hard to describe to others (even those we most love) why we've had to be thus for most of our lives. I think shame and isolation (both often self-imposed and coming hand-in-hand) has much to do with it. But in the end it’s the fear (no, the terror really) that motivates our deceit. We fear being left alone, abandoned and unloved. So we fashion a mask, it “becomes us” and we desperately hope it never slips. When we, in our own time, each summon (from somewhere God knows where) the ability to put the shame down and walk away we hope very much that our loved one's will forgive us and go with us on "this road less traveled . . . "

This "truth" is what I have experienced and YMMV. I very much hope that with patience, understanding and knowledge "my experience" will not be shared by another soul ever again.

now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find . . .


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